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Thursday, April 23, 2015

A Resource for Authors

Writing it Right

1) What is the difference between a ghost and a spirit?

2) What are the two major ways in which psychics do readings?

3) Do we retain our personalities after we die and cross to the other side?

4) What are psychics capable of doing?

5) Can your deceased aunt be your Guardian Angel?

I have completed a lot of research with real people with psychic abilities. This work is not fiction (although it often reads like sci-fi fantasy).

Information on this website, in the book, and in the "Psychics Speak" interviews, can be a huge resource for authors who need to know what psychics actually do, how they think, and how they talk about the universe.

One goal of this work is to lay a framework for psychic ability; to get an idea of the realities and the possibilities. Another goal is to define terminology so we understand what people are talking about. Many terms are defined on the "Glossary" page of this website.

If you are an author with a specific question about what psychics do, or how they believe the universe works, feel free to ask me. I'll see if anyone has an answer for you.

Now, to answer the questions:

1) A "ghost" is the energy of a deceased person who has not yet crossed to other side. A "spirit" is the soul of a person who has crossed into the Light. (Because nothing is ever that straightforward, I will mention that some people believe that ghosts are more like energy imprints.)

2) There are two major ways in which psychics provide readings:

a) They connect directly into the client's energy, often by holding hands or by doing body work. All questions can be answered by accessing the client's energy.

b) They work with their Spirit Guides and angels to communicate with the client's Spirit Guides and angels. There is no direct energy-to-energy connection. This method protects the psychic from anything harmful in the client's energy field.

3) Yes, we retain our personalities on the other side. We have an expanded view of issues, see how all of our lifetimes have worked together, and realize how we have affected other people. However, we are not enlightened beings until we have completed all of our physical lifetimes.

4) Most psychics have an area of expertise. For example, they may be a Medium or an Animal Communicator. However, in an emergency, they can often do things they had not known they were capable of doing. They may need to provide an emergency healing, or have a prophetic moment. Some things happen on a "need to know" basis.

5) Every person is born with a Guardian Angel who is with them before birth, through life, through death, and into the afterlife. If a friend or relative dies, that soul may join the person's Spirit Guide group. The deceased will not be a Guardian Angel (that slot is already full), but will still be able to provide support and guidance. Most Spirit Guides have lived in the physical world. Most angels have not had physical lives (although they can show up in physical form in an emergency).

Other questions?

Send them to me at

Have a lovely day.


10:53 am mst

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

Quote - Time is flying by

Quote from a Channeled Message

"It seems that time is flying by. It seems to go so fast. You all have some understanding that time is an illusion. And yet, you live in a world where things are marked by time. Know that because of the energies coming into the world, time will seem to speed up. Of course, time seems much faster for those who have been on the earth plane for a while, than for the children who have just come in. For them, a year seems like a long time, but you know that the years fly by.

"My message is simple: Enjoy the time you have and know that because of the energy which is coming in, and each of you are drawing in, that each of you are becoming more and more aware that time seems to go very fast. However, this is a blessing for you as your desires will come to you faster and faster and faster. The more you release your doubts and worries, the faster things will come. The more you have fun, and the more you play, and the more you enjoy your life, the harder it is for you to keep your doubts and worries. So live and love and enjoy the time that you have."

10:20 am mst

Thursday, April 16, 2015

Heavenly Music

Heavenly Music

An Intuitive woman told me about her near near-death experience (NDE). This is her paraphrased story:

"It was the middle of the night and I felt like I was having a heart attack. It scared me. I couldn't even move. My back hurt. I thought I'd better get up and get some water; do something. I got out of bed, walked around, sipped some water, then went back to bed. As soon as I started to fall asleep, I heard this beautiful music playing, music like I had never heard before. I wondered, "What could it be? An ice cream truck?" It was the middle of the night. I didn't think I'd left the radio or the CD player on. I got out of bed again. I checked the doors, opening them to see if anyone was playing music. Nothing was there.

"I went back to bed and the harmonious music started playing again. Finally, I fell asleep.

"Sunday morning, I was still feeling odd from the day before. I went to church, then headed for the grocery store.

"On the way, I called a friend and asked how he was doing. He was sitting at his computer, reading that our mutual friend had just passed away. She had been found dead at 10 p.m. on the night I had heard the music. She was a really good friend of mine and she had suffered a heart attack.

"I had never heard that music before. It was almost like a peaceful type of beautiful music. You just want to relax. I had no idea."

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Years ago, I talked to Delphina Nova about the role which music played in her life. She told me:

"From the age of five until I was a teenager, I played music 4 or 5 hours a day. I played the accordion. I was in festivals and competitions. This was a huge part of my life. Back then, it was my direct link to the Divine. At this time in my life, I am just realizing that there was a huge connection. As a child, playing classical music for 4 or 5 hours a day was a meditative practice. I wasn't meditating, or praying, but the music linked me to the music of the spirits. Music was my first love. Through music, I was connected to planets and stars, to souls. I knew I wasn't just a body when I was playing music. This is just starting to reveal itself. Music is going on constantly in the Universe. Music was a way for me to soothe my soul during dark times.

"Now, I play the Native American flute. I play it for myself, for my own connection. Occasionally, I play the flute at ceremonies, such as births, transitions, and name-givings. Music is a huge part of my life."

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I, too, have heard mystical, classical music when none was there.

Have you heard celestial harmonies, turned, and discovered that there was no obvious source for the music? If so, I would love to hear your story. You can contact me at


9:50 am mst

Tuesday, April 14, 2015

A Personal Way to Communicate

Conversing with Psychics

A few months ago, I asked an Intuitive how she received messages, and if we could all receive messages. She told me:

"There are people, entities, on all levels willing to talk to you. Some people on the other side are experts in their field. All sorts of information is over there. Spirit Guides are closer to our energy than angels. Sometimes people can accept angels because they are part of traditional religion. Other people think that angels are too far from anything they know, yet there is this range of beings who you can tap into.

"If you allow it, you can get information. How it will happen for you, will be different than how it happens for anyone else.

"When you trust that how you get it is real, it will come in faster and better.

"If you talk to someone who pushes Guides and Teachers, and says that is the only way to communicate, you are never going to see how you do it because you are always going to go to Guides and Teachers. They are there and they will talk to you, but you have to discover your personal way of receiving information.

"I'm an Intuitive. I feel. I'm clairscentient. I hear, but not with a voice. I say 'I hear it' because it is almost like an echo, like someone shouted into the room, then I can hear it. It's not coming into my ear. Sometimes, they write a banner. I'm visual. If they know my ears aren't going to get it, they write a banner. That's if I'm conscious of the communication.

"The unconscious part comes when Spirit just takes over and says words. Messages bypass my conscious brain and come out of my mouth. I will be talking to you and I will hit the exact words you need to hear. My mouth will say the words, but if you ask me to repeat them, I won't be able to do it. I can't get it back because I didn't originate it.

"Now, I understand that is how I communicate. I'm comfortable with it.

"Everyone can discover their own way of communicating with Spirit."

11:40 am mst

Thursday, April 9, 2015

Harmony Grove's Rebirth and Renewal

Rebirth and Renewal

Harmony Grove's story is everyone's story. Out of destruction comes renewal.

Harmony Grove is a spiritualist community west of Escondido, California. I visited Harmony Grove several years ago and found a lovely, calm spot. In May 2014, wildfires swept through, and destroyed, much of Harmony Grove. The church burned down, along with homes and the bookstore. I wrote a blog post about the fire in May 2014.

In February 2015, nine months after the fire, I visited Harmony Grove again. I wanted to see what remained on the site. It was serendipitous that I arrived, unannounced, on a day that the gate was open for trash pickup. Turns out, Harmony Grove has been closed to the public most of the time since the fire. However, they still have Psychic Fairs and classes so it is open for those events. I just happened to show up on a day when the gates were open, the woman I had talked with several years ago was in her car in the parking lot (just about to leave), and the current President was working onsite. I was allowed to enter the property and to relax in the Meditation Garden.

After sitting in the calm, I stopped in to see one of the women who was onsite working to rebuild Harmony Grove. Her name is Reverend Coy Johnston and she is the current President of the Harmony Grove Spiritualist Association. We had never before met, yet she was gracious enough to chat with me and tell me about Harmony Grove's rebirth and renewal.

I asked about the fire and she told me that there had been an evacuation order the night before the blaze had swept through Harmony Grove. All of the people and pets had safely evacuated, so no one had been hurt. At the time, Coy had thought that the people were being asked to leave, like they had many times before, but she had been certain that the evacuees would return to their homes a few days later. She had not thought that the fire would burn Harmony Grove. That is not what happened. Many of the homes had been destroyed, all of the people had to move elsewhere, and the community had to ride out a period of debris removal. People had to grieve their losses, reconcile the fact that they had lost their homes and possessions, move on, come to an emotional place where they could accept what had happened, and begin to see that the fire had provided an opportunity for Harmony Grove's renewal.

So, what was my first logical, annoying, question to Coy? "As a bunch of psychics, didn't people know that Harmony Grove was going to burn?" Yes and no. Coy told me that several psychics had known that the area would burn. They had warned others, then left with their belongings. However, other people were in denial. They just couldn't believe that Spirit would allow the area to burn. There had been many wildfires, and Harmony Grove had always been spared.

Now, let's go back to a few months prior to the fire. Coy told me that new energies had been coming into Harmony Grove since 2011. The onsite spiritualists had felt these new energies. Vortexes had opened on the property.

In Coy's opinion, Spirit had seen the fires approaching Harmony Grove and had taken the opportunity to allow some of the old wooden buildings to burn so that new buildings could be built within the new energies. Enough of the property had been spared that activities could continue, but the old buildings could now be replaced by new buildings.

Similarly, all the people who had lived at Harmony Grove had to move out. This provided an opportunity for people to choose anew where they wanted to live. If they were dedicated to Harmony Grove, they were welcome to return and build new homes. If they were on the fence, not certain that they still wanted to live at Harmony Grove, they could make the choice to live elsewhere. When rebuilt, the Grove will be home to completely re-committed spiritualists, brand-new buildings, and the new energies which now inspire the property. This is an opportunity to renew everything, not just the homes, but the whole community's character.

Right now, many classes are being held at Harmony Grove. The monthly Psychic Fair is open to the public, Mediums and healers are being trained and certified, the Summer Institute is being planned, and ministers are being ordained. Much is happening. You can check out the Harmony Grove website for information on these activities. In addition, the website has photos of the fire damage, and information on how you can contribute to rebuilding the site.

The important message is that we all go through periods of despair and renewal. We can survive life's challenges and realize that they often lead to re-dedication and happiness. Life changes. Fires burn. We adapt, and we may flourish afterwards. The energies are changing for all of us. In these new energies, we are encouraged to make new choices, or to reaffirm the life choices we have already made. The new energies allow us to feel better, lighter, brighter, and clearer.

The Skull Speaks

For those of you who are waiting for a story which is a little bit "out there," here we go.

Many crystals were onsite when the fire roared through. In the most-intense areas of heat, crystals had disintegrated. One of the surviving pieces was a small crystal skull. After the fire, the skull was picked up by someone with which it could communicate; someone who was sensitive enough to "hear" the skull. The skull wanted to go everywhere with this woman. It had been freaked out by the fire. The skull raged on, telling stories about what it was like to live through an inferno. The skull's energy was jittery, like a child who had survived a trauma. Finally, after telling his story over and over, and showing this woman what it was like to live through a fire, the skull calmed down. The skull became the spokesman for all the things which had survived the fire. Then, the crystal skull became an energy point, anchoring new energy at Harmony Grove.

Thank you, Coy, for taking the time to chat with me and for your willingness to help me understand the bigger picture.


11:11 am mst

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

Denise Singerline Foster's Energy Work

Quote from a Psychic - Denise Singerline Foster's Energy Work

Denise Singerline Foster is a teacher, a Reiki Master, and a chakra-balancing specialist. Today's "Quote" is an excerpt from our interview. In our conversation, Denise discusses some of the ways she can help people heal. My questions are in Italics and her answers are in the regular font.

Can you tell me about your energy work?
When I start doing healing work, I ask Spirit to help me step aside so they can work through me and attach themselves to the backs of my hands. I ask them to show me what needs to be done; to guide me and lead me. I step out of the way and I start channeling energy through my body.

All of the sudden I will see a little movie inside my head. For example, I will see a cruise ship and I will figure out that the client is going on a cruise. Or a book will pop up and I will suggest that the client read the book. Or I'll see a symbol like the Star of David and know that the client is Jewish. If I don't understand the symbol, I'll ask what they are trying to tell me and I will hear additional information. Sometimes I hear that there is an issue with one of the client's organs so I'll clean it out. I also know what supplements they need.

If you see a cruise ship, do you have any way of knowing if they took a cruise in the past, or if they are going to take a cruise in the future?
I can ask. I'll ask when they are going, and I'll hear, "In the spring."

So, you actually hear a voice?
Yes. I can see images, hear a voice, and channel energy.

Who do you think you are connecting with?
I often work with Jesus. I call upon Christ, Guides, angels, Buddha, Kwan Yin, the Ascended Masters and the White Brotherhood of Light ["White" refers to the color of the aura, not to race]. I work with whomever of the Christ Consciousness wants to help me.

Do you know who comes?
Yes, Jesus most of the time. I was raised Catholic so I am very comfortable with Jesus. I also communicate with Mary, Kwan Yin, and Buddha. I am very connected to the oriental energy. I also work with Archangels Michael and Rafael.

Do you know where they are located?
I say it is from the Divine. To me, it is like another dimension. It's not a planet or a galaxy; it's another dimension which exists alongside of ours.

Do you think G-d is involved; if so, how?
It's all Divine. I don't think G-d is one single entity, I think it is more like a consciousness. It's an energy. I am tapping into that Universal Divine Energy.

Do you need to protect yourself when you do this work?
Oh yes. I ask Archangel Michael and his Angels of Protection to completely surround me with their wings and keep me safely protected. I ask for gold saucers on my hands. I ask that I be protected from any energy which is not mine, not of the Light, or a disease. After I do my healing work, I dump all of the energy and I fill myself with Light.

Can you tell me about the gold saucers on your hands?
I ask for gold saucers on the backs of my hands and I ask that all of the Angels of Healing place their hands on top of mine so that they can guide and lead me. They work through me.

Those are lovely images.

I also have a beautiful crystal wand with gemstones in it. I had looked for a wand for two years. Then, one year I was at the gem show and I saw an Indian woman all the way across the room, in the corner. Our eyes connected. I walked over to her table and it was filled with gorgeous wands. I picked up a couple of wands, but the minute I picked up this one, my hand started vibrating and I knew I had to get it. I knew it was the one for me.

What do you use the wand for?
I use it in my healing work. I hold it in my left hand because the left hand receives energy. I use it to cut things out of the client's aura. I do psychic surgery and it is my psychic scalpel. It amplifies the energy. Energy comes in through the left and the crystal amplifies the energy.

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I found so many new ideas in this part of our conversation that I wanted to share all of them with you. If you also found this interesting, you might enjoy reading the entire interview. The interview is now available as a Kindle e-book. It is the 18th entry in the Psychics Speak series. You can click here to find the book. Remember, you don't need a Kindle e-reader to view the material. You can download free software and read Kindle e-books on your computer, your phone or your tablet.

If you want to know more about Denise and her work, check her website at

Let me know what you think.


12:14 pm mst

Thursday, April 2, 2015

John Hunter's NDE - Part II

 John Hunter's Near-Death Experience, Part II

Last Thursday, I shared the amazing story of John's near-death experience (NDE). Today, I am posting his reflection on that experience, nearly 20 years later. John was only 21 when he crossed to other side, found himself in a waiting room, felt total love, received a download of information, and was sent back to his body. His story continues:

After that event, I felt different. My experience on the other side had changed my perspective on things. I noticed a difference in how I felt when my family members visited me in the hospital. They told me that they loved me and that they were there for me. I could feel their emotions, really feel what they were thinking. I was connected to them on many levels. I understood that things were different.

I was in the hospital for three days, and racked up about $150,000 bill. I had no money. I was a poor college student. That reality, and what had happened, stressed me.

I was released from the hospital on Halloween and visited my friend who had kids. We took them trick-or-treating, although I could barely walk. I was sore. I was 21. I wasn't thinking realistically. "Sure I can go walking." I'm still invincible. I was in shock for six months.

I had to have blood thinners for a year to make sure there weren't any other clots or blocks. Eventually, they figured out that this had been a freak thing. There was no other damage. No future risk. I had suffered a sports injury five years before the heart attack. My shoulder had blown out. Scar tissue was scattered throughout my body. A piece of tissue had moved into my aorta and blood had clotted around it. It was a freak thing. Nothing I had to worry about again.

I didn't think about the download for many years. I just started wondering about it a few months ago. I kept telling myself that it was nothing I needed to know. For twenty years, I didn't ask what it was. I had a sense that it would be made clear when it was time.

About two months ago, I asked myself about the download. What am I supposed to know? I do healing work. I physically release the tension in people's bodies. That's all I've allowed myself to tell others I could do. Recently, I have felt that it was time to find out what I am supposed to do, how I am supposed to help, what my true path is. So I asked myself, "What was that information?"

I couldn't understand the download when it occurred because I hadn't learned enough about the process of downloading. Since then, I have learned that we all have 12 strands of DNA, but not all 12 strands are active. You can think of your 12 stands of DNA as your energy chakra system. You can work with your first chakra and the emotions and the issues that deal with your first chakra. Or, you can work with the second chakra. Think of those as your DNA strands. There are 12 chakras, there are 12 DNA strands. Most of us do not use all 12 strands.

DNA is a code. What was downloaded was the additional code which allowed me to activate all 12 strands of my DNA. It gets down to using more of who we are and how we are created; more of an aspect, or an understanding, of our self. This download was called a "key." The codes are the key to opening the door to our Higher Self.

Until now, I have only acknowledged certain aspects of the enlightenment process. Maybe I was afraid of looking into other people, and their energy, and reading that? Maybe I was afraid of affecting other people's lives? Maybe I was not confident enough in my life to be able to tell someone else about theirs? I couldn't use my full abilities to help someone, or to heal them.

To break down the barrier I had built around "the event of the download," I had to be hypnotized. I went to a hypnotist and said I wanted a past-life regression. I wanted to find out who I had been, to allow me to be who I am today. I wanted to see it like a movie, watch it play out, and learn from it. That didn't happen. When I went under hypnosis, I found that I was blocking myself from seeing or feeling that knowledge. The hypnotist had me go to the blockage (what I was afraid of, what I was allowing to be the excuse for keeping me from this all-knowing information), and take it away. I went through a process of disengaging the limitation that I had created for myself.

I went back and forth. My excited side which wanted to help and learn had to talk to the side which was afraid and wanted control. There was an internal argument about maintaining control of my life. When the argument settled, I was able to remove the blockage. From that moment, there was no more fight, no more holding back. I honestly felt the block go away. I felt it release physically, mentally, and energetically. Since then, I have been able to cut loose and not hold back. I am so much happier.

Now, I don't allow myself to limit any aspect of my ability to feel, read, perceive, or process energy of any type. I am sensitive to that energy, and I can use it to help and guide others. I can also guide my own life.

It's almost 20 years since I had the heart attack. I am finally allowing myself to benefit from that experience, understand that experience, and live my life fully-enacted through that experience.

In massage therapy sessions, I don't fight or hold back. I am as natural as I can be in communicating with someone else. It is so great, so rewarding, so freeing. I just love it. I love to help others take blocks out of their lives so they can feel the true love and excitement of life. This is rewarding work.

I have been told that this is my the second chance to get things done. That was an overwhelming feeling. At 21, I had wanted a wife and kids. I have them now. I need to put my work back on track. I need to refocus. I need to start seeing, feeling, and asking myself questions about my growth and development.

Right now, I help people release physical tension. They also need emotional and mental releases. It's great to remove the blocks which limit people. My goal is to help others understand themselves. I want to help people reconnect to who they are. It embodies empowerment in an unlimited way.

I'm excited. I've been excited for 20 years. Everything is coming together.

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Thank you, John, for your openness and your willingness to share your experience with the rest of us.

For more information on John and his work, view his website at


9:56 am mst

Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Quote from a Medium - The Information Highway

Quote from a Medium - The Information Highway

I asked Medium Nancy Parsons, "When you do readings, what do you do?"

She answered:

"Every reading is different. I go with what I am told in the moment. I don't have a preconceived notion before a client arrives.

"I don't care if it is the Psychic Fair or a full reading, nothing starts for me without going through G-d first. I know that I am of service, through G-d; not through my teachers or Guides, not through the person across from me or through their teachers, Guides, or family members, but though G-d. When I do readings, the information comes from G-d. The information comes through my Higher Self, through G-d. It's not just about throwing the cards.

"To connect, I need to get on what I call ‘The Highway' where all of the information lies. It's like an energy field of the universe where information is held. Every reader has a different way of getting there. As far back as I can remember, the breath gets you to a different level. Once you've done it for a while, you can get yourself there quickly because you know how to do it. You just reach up and ask for assistance with information for the person with whom you are talking. ‘There goes Martha Lou! Can we have Martha Lou back here please?' Then Martha Lou comes back and stands behind the client.

"On that information highway is where I personally see someone or get a feeling. Some [deceased] people are very animated and show up how you would recognize them, then they revert to how they look now. If your grandfather shows up with his pipe and his hat and his beard, I'm going to explain that to you. Then, he's going to go back to how he looked at 35 or 40, which is how he looks now. They assist us in identifying them. The first image is just to get recognition. They understand skepticism. They know that people are skeptical. After I convince you that I am talking to your grandfather, and you confirm, ‘Yes, he smoked a pipe with cherry tobacco. He loved it,' then he can give me whatever it is that he wants to say to you or your family. Or, he can answer a question.

"Not everyone shows up with the hat and the pipe and the tobacco which I can smell. It's almost like the readings; there isn't a set way that spirits show up. Sometimes it is just a ray of light behind someone. It just depends. There is no one way."

Nancy Parsons

10:19 am mst

Thursday, March 26, 2015

John Hunter's Near-Death Experience

Announcement: The Tucson Museum of Art Spring Artisans' Market will begin tomorrow and run through Sunday (March 27 - 29, 2015). I'll be set up in the Museum's lobby with my books and "Wild Girl!" artwork. Please come visit!

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Earlier this month, John Hunter told me about the near-death experience (NDE) he had when he was only 21. This fascinating story has so much to it, that it must be told in two parts. This week, we have Part I. Come back next week for Part II.

John Hunter's Near-Death Experience - Part I

I am in college, sitting in astronomy class, and I begin to feel numbness on my left side. I think, "Oh, I worked out this morning before class. I didn't stretch well. I am a little sore." I am 21 years old, working out all the time, and thinking I'm invincible.

I am sitting there stretching and, all of the sudden, my whole body is freezing cold. Overwhelmingly cold. My teeth are chattering. I have goosebumps. I nudge the person next to me in class and ask, "Is it cold in here?" No, they don't think it is cold. An instant later, I am hot; sweating hot. My skin is red. I am so hot, I am uncomfortable; unbelievably hot. So I nudge the person on the other side and ask, "Is it hot in here?" No, they think it is perfectly fine. Okay. For the next 30 minutes of class, I have drastic hot and cold flashes. I think that maybe I am dehydrated, I hadn't stretched after my workout, I need water.

After class, I take my friend home and go to a Wendy's by the college. I order a salad and water. I have no appetite; which is rare. I drink the water, but it doesn't help. I get another hot flash and I go to the bathroom to splash cool water on my face, calm down, and call my friend. It is October 1995; there are no cell phones.

In the bathroom, I splash water on my face, but I can't physically leave the sink. I am holding on to the sink. My mind is saying, "Let's go," but my body is not reacting. Whoa.

I have a feeling in my stomach that something is wrong. I lean against the sink, then lean against the wall. I think, "I needed to gather myself, walk out, and make the phone call." My body does not respond. I slide down the wall so I am sitting there, leaning against the wall. I am like, "Wow, something is wrong. I might not make it out of this." I get that feeling. I say my good-byes. I think, "Even though I'm only 21, I've had an exciting life. I have traveled, I've done things. The only thing I regret is not having a wife and kids. That's it."

I have trouble breathing and my left side is really sore, but I don't think "heart attack." I think, "Okay, it's my time." I am not worried about what is wrong. I just know it's probably time for me to go.

I don't have the energy to sit up anymore, so I slide down and lie on my back in the middle of the bathroom floor. I say, "I'm okay with this. It's my time."

While lying there, I see the feet of somebody in the bathroom stall and I say, "Hey, can you call 911? I'm having trouble breathing." The employee rushes out and finds a manager. I tell him that my left side is numb, and I'm having trouble breathing. I still don't think "heart attack."

All of the sudden, three paramedics rush in and check me out. They talk to me. I tell them that I am having trouble breathing. My left side is sore and numb. They say they are going to help me. They give me an oxygen mask.

I take a breath in, take a breath out. Take a breath in, take a breath out. Take a breathe in and leave my body in total darkness. I float out of my physical body.

It's pure darkness, pure blackness, for a second or two. Just long enough for me to say, "I'm floating in total darkness." As soon as that thought happens, I float into this large, dim, waiting room. A lit-up hallway is kitty-corner from me. Older people are sitting along the walls. They are really happy. Their energy form is clearly defined. I feel so connected to them, and they look so happy. They are in perfect bliss.

As I look at them, my mind acknowledges them. I'm trying to see if they are family, if these are relatives. I don't recognize anyone's face, but I feel totally connected, like they could be my family. I'm just looking. I'm greeting them, and they are greeting me with pure love and happiness. We are communicating by thought. It's natural and wonderful.

I move along the wall. At the end of the wall there is an empty, lit-up, chair. I know this chair is for me. I sit down and I'm just like everyone else. I look at everybody, and we exchange this positive energy of love and happiness.

Then, all of the sudden, it's like my brain is split into left and right. My left side is acknowledging the people, and my right side is being downloaded with information, like if you were to see the old computers getting downloaded with code. Zeroes, ones, and all these numbers are being downloaded like crazy. As fast as possible. I am like "Wow." I am acknowledging the people in the room, I'm acknowledging that I am getting downloaded, and then I'm saying, "This is weird, I'm getting downloaded." I just thought that was interesting.

One eye is seeing this download of information. The other eye is looking at everybody and communicating this love energy with them.

After a while, a voice says, "Okay, it's not your time. You need to go back." I stand up and I float out, just like I floated in, back through that second of darkness, then right back into my body.

When I open my eyes, all these people are around me. The paramedics are there, along with the fire department and the police department. They are putting up equipment. Putting everything away. No one is looking at me. Maybe there are 15 people in the bathroom and no one even knows my eyes are open. I wait a second, smile, kinda laugh like, "this is awkward," then I say, "Hey guys, what's up?" Everyone freaks out. Everyone jumps. Everyone turns and looks at me, freaking out. The paramedics jump on me and start hooking me up, saying, "We gotta get this guy to the hospital."

The guy who did CPR on me starts crying. He can't even look at me. They take him out the room. He is overwhelmed.

The thing that saves my life is that the Wendy's is very close to the only heart hospital in the State of Idaho. It was only a few minute drive to the emergency room.

They load me into the ambulance, and I am cracking jokes. I'm 21. I have no emotional connection. I am in shock. I have no feelings. I am like, "Wow, I always wanted to ride in a ambulance, but not like this!" LOL

The guy who did CPR on me is in the ambulance. He's still crying and can't acknowledge me, or look at me. One of the paramedics tells me that his buddy is having trouble. He did the CPR. "He's never lost anybody, and he's never had anybody come back. He's beside himself. Can you say a few words to him?" I'm thinking, "Oh great. I don't feel anything. What am I going to say to this guy?"

I take his hand and I try to act as emotional as I can, like I'm in a movie. I remember thinking, "I've got to make this seem real." I don't feel anything. I take his hand and thank him, even though I don't know what he has done. I am not connected to that. He keeps crying. I remember how weird a feeling that was, not feeling any emotion, not feeling anything.

They rush me into the hospital saying, "Okay John, we have one room to work on you. Someone is being worked on in that heart room. We have five minutes. If we don't get you in there in five minutes, we are going to have to do open heart surgery and that will change your chance of survival." As they ask me 20 questions about what I ate that day, what I did, what I drank, I am staring at the clock, watching time tick away.

With a minute and thirty-four seconds left, they clear the room and rush me in. I am very relieved. They hook me up to a system with six television screens and give me a limited amount of nitroglycerin to numb the pain. They can only give me a limited amount because this is heart surgery. "We only have so much time to go in and find out what is wrong." They make an incision on my right upper thigh, stick in a tube, and are able to see on the TV monitors what they are doing. I'm watching it on six screens too. It is pretty cool. They get to my heart. Tissue is blocking my aorta. They have to clear the tissue blocking the passageway. They chip away at the tissue which is lodged in there. Blood has clotted around this tissue and is cutting off circulation in the aorta.

It takes longer than they think and the pain medication wears off while they are still in there. I deal with the sensation of the tube being taken out and a tourniquet being applied. It is the most painful thing I have ever been through. They have to put pressure on the incision, so I won't lose blood. They put an awkward shaped thing on the incision, like the shape of a plastic lid, and cinch it down, like luggage on top of a car. They make it as tight as possible, and I have to keep it on for six hours. This is the toughest part of the process: no pain medicine and having the tourniquet on my leg for six hours. I count every second. They can't give me pain medication because they don't want to affect the heart function and rhythm.

After they remove the tourniquet, I have pain medication. I feel pretty good. Then the emotional aspect hits me. The realization of what I have been through. I have a 15-minute emotional breakdown, then I gather myself and am glad that I have made it.

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John is an Intuitive Massage Therapist. You can find out more about his practice at Next week, read about how "the download" enhanced John's intuitive abilities.

10:11 am mst

Tuesday, March 24, 2015

What do angels look like?

 Quote from a Psychic - Angels

I asked Kermie Wohlenhaus, an angelologist, "When you see angels, what do you see? Do you see the classic angels with wings and feathers?"

Kermie answered:

"Let me ask them right now, ‘What do you want me to tell her that I see?'

"There is a being right here who has wings. He says, ‘We have wings, but we don't have to have wings. We can do anything.' They are shape shifters. They can take any form, depending on the message. It's all about the mission.

"If a young boy comes out of nowhere and says something to you, or a person rescues you then leaves without a trace, this person was probably an angel. Angels can come into a physical body to give you a message. Angels come in all kinds of variations. They appear from out of nowhere and leave without a trace. The person who has had such visitations remembers them forever, as if they just happened a few moments ago. There is a feeling of knowing that it was an angelic encounter."

Kermie Wohlenhaus

10:23 am mst

Thursday, March 19, 2015

The Veil

The Veil

Do you remember when some kid pissed you off in grade school? Remember when your co-worker said something awful? Remember something you said which still embarrasses you? How does this feel? Crappy.

What if you could remember everything, good and bad, from your previous lifetimes? It's overwhelming to think about. Sure, there's the warmhearted and kind stuff, but what about all the wars, the starvation, the lynchings? Would you want to remember all of that? Probably not.

This is where the Veil of Forgetfulness comes in. There is a Veil between the physical and non-physical worlds. You don't have to remember anything. You can come into each life with a clean slate of memories. You can start each life with a fresh opportunity to create the life you want.

This Veil stands between your conscious mind, your recollection of the other side, and your memory of what you have come into a body to do and to learn. There are hints, but not full disclosure. You may meet people with whom you have a surprising, visceral response. You may not understand why you feel the way you do. This could be a past life reflex or something Karmic. Or, you could travel somewhere and find it oddly familiar - another clue that previous lifetimes exist.

However, for the most part, the Veil of Forgetfulness allows us to move freely in this world, without conscious contact from "the other side."

The Veil is not physical. It is a mismatch at the interface where different frequencies meet. In the physical world, we vibrate at a certain frequency. On the other side, the vibration frequency is much higher. Even though we can be in the same room with our ancestors and Spirit Guides, we don't see them because they are vibrating at a higher frequency than we can pick up. This has been likened to watching fan blades rotate. When they rotate slowly, you see them, but when the fan is at full speed, it is difficult to see the individual blades.

Some people can raise their frequencies (mainly through meditation) so they can interact with souls and Guides who vibrate at higher frequencies. Other times, Spirit Guides can lower their frequencies so they can communicate with people in physical bodies who move at a slower vibration.

Why is it important to have a separation between the physical world and the non-physical world? On the other side, we see the long arc of our soul growth. We understand what we need to physically experience each lifetime on earth so that we can continue along this arc. We see the big picture. We plan the outlines of our incarnations.

On earth, we live through the things we have chosen to experience so that we learn and grow. At first, most of us don't realize that there is another side, an invisible support system in which we live. If we knew what we were here to do, we wouldn't be challenged to figure it out. We wouldn't explore multiple avenues until we found the road which felt just right; the activities which brought us joy, and allowed us to grow through exploration.

I've always thought it would make life easier if I knew why I was here. It would make life easier. Too easy.

Without the Veil, there would be no mystery. We would see that we are eternal. We wouldn't feel the pressure of eventual death, of time running out, of the need to "get it done now." We have a literal dead-line to accomplish whatever growth we are going to achieve this lifetime.

In addition, the veil allows privacy. I don't want everyone on earth knowing my business, who I am, and our Karmic connection. I don't want to connect with my deceased relatives daily; I just want to know that life continues on the other side. I'm always looking for proof of how things are set up, but I don't need to hear anyone else's opinions on my activities. Too much static. On the other hand, I would like good advice from my Spirit Guides and angels.

People who are sensitive have told me that "The Veil is lifting" and "The Veil will lift four more times." I haven't felt it. If anything, my messages have become less frequent and clear.

Until this year, I had hoped that the veil would lift. I wanted to see the other side. Then, I heard the explanation of what it would be like if there was no veil. We would remember all the injustices and horrors of previous lifetimes. We would carry grudges against people who had harmed or killed us in those lifetimes. And they would carry grudges against us. Who wants that?!

I leave this explanation with you to ponder. If you have any questions or comments, or you think I am missing pieces, please send an e-mail to me at


12:17 pm mst

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Quote from an Intuitive - Connection

                           Quote from an Intuitive

"We are made to be partners. We are made to be a community. We are made to work with each other, help each other, grow together. We are all from the same source. I've studied so much. It all comes back to the same thing: we are all from the same source.

"We are all from that love, from the energy of the universe which allows creation of objects and the combining of matter, through vibration. It's love vibration, and love vibration is the creative vibration of life. That is why it is so strong. That is why it overpowers everything.

"If we remember that, and go back to that, we will always have that healing energy in us. We are a part of it. We are made from it. We are all connected through it. We just don't want to acknowledge that because it's too simple. It's too powerful. It's too beautiful. But it's there. It's there. We are who we are. We are connected to each other, no matter how much we try to say we are not."

John Hunter

11:24 am mst

Thursday, March 12, 2015

Information Dowloads

Information Downloads

Why are some people highly talented psychics and energy workers? Many people are born with the gift and know from childhood that they have abilities. Some of these people have their abilities enhanced through traumas and/or near death experiences.

I want to share two stories of people who were in unconscious states when they received huge downloads of information. This information helped them understand the work they were here to do.

One of these people is Raquel Spencer. Raquel is a multi-dimensional energy worker, an ascension specialist, and a teacher. She travels the world helping people discover their connection to their Higher Self.

In her early twenties, with no medical cause, Raquel fell into a 5 ½ week coma. During that time, her body was upgraded and re-wired so that she could handle the energy she would need for her eventual energetic work.

Raquel told me:

"I did not have a Near-Death Experience (NDE) or go into the light. My parents told me that on several occasions I sat straight up in the bed and spoke to them in "non-language." It was a language not of this world. Some people might call it "speaking in tongues." It scared my parents. I was pronounced dead three times and I came back three times. My family was completely freaked out. I am glad I don't remember any of this. There was no medical reason or accident which caused this event."

"What I have learned is that when I was in the hospital, I was receiving downloads, being changed, and being rewired so that my physical body could handle the energy to do this work. They put me out for five weeks."

Later in her interview she explained her work:

"One of the ways I describe it is that the body is the hardware and Divine Source is the software. Much of our hardware doesn't run the software, so my job is to upgrade the hardware to communicate with the software. I help prepare the body to receive clear information and house its own spirit. The physical world is just a minute part of who we are in the vastness of consciousness. We have a smidgen of our true self residing in the body. The work I do clears the body, and brings in more knowledge, wisdom, divine connection, and spirit. When I do a session, I upgrade the hardware. I work on an energetic level. Everything is energy. The frequency of the energy vibration determines how it is perceived. I work with the energy systems of the body. I do many things. Primarily, I clear deep emotional blockages, and physical and emotional traumas. I fix ‘circuitry' so that light (light being the Divine Source) can flow through the body without any breaks.

"I help people with their own ability to tap into their Highest Self. I help people to be better at their spiritual work. I help them figure out their life's work and do it well. When I do energy work, I access their energetic information and bring in the person's Divine Blueprint. If people are ready, I can give them direction, and help them work with the Ascended Masters, angels and Guides who have information for them. I can help them improve their meditation by raising their personal vibrational frequency so that they start to get information. People can begin to receive clear information about their life's work."

"I connect with the Higher Realms. I connect into the higher frequencies and that is where I do my work. I go into a certain "space" where I connect with clients energetically in the Higher Realms on the higher frequencies (energy vibrating at a faster pace). I connect to the client's Higher Self. My Higher Self works with their Higher Self, then it comes down into physical reality."

Fascinated? If you want to know more about Raquel and her incredible life story, you can read our interview as a Kindle e-book. You can find it on

Is Raquel's story completely unique? Earlier this month, I talked to a person who had a similar event. In his early twenties, he had a heart attack, traveled to the other side, and received a download of information. This concept was so foreign to him, that he tried not to think about it for the next 20 years. Now, he is just beginning to unravel the mystery of what happened to him, and why it happened. Stay tuned, I'll have more to write about his fascinating story.

In the meantime, check out Raquel's interview here. You can also learn more about Raquel and her work on her website,

Questions or comments? You can always send an e-mail to me at


12:20 pm mst

Tuesday, March 10, 2015

Afterlife Creation

Conversing with Psychics

This new feature highlights discussions I have had with psychics. I hope you enjoy these snippets of conversation.

From what I understand, what you experience after death reflects what you think will happen. It's not completely what you expect, but it's close. For example, if you think you will go somewhere lovely, and you have the karma and capacity to do that, you will go somewhere wonderful. If you think you are going to a place of fire and brimstone, that is what you will create. If you think that death is the end and there isn't anything more, you may find yourself alone in the blackness for a while. Then, you can make a new choice. Just as we create our reality on this side, we create our reality on the other side.

I was part of this conversation a few weeks ago:

Psychic 1: My 42 year old cousin died of breast cancer. I went looking for her in a meditation and I saw hectares and hectares of rolling hills and, about every six feet, there was a casket. There were beautiful, tiny little angels, knocking on the caskets and asking if they would like to get up. The souls responded, "No, I'm waiting for Jesus."

Psychic 2: People haven't made their choice. They are in the muck and have to choose to leave. They don't realize that all they have to do is get up and walk out. They are stuck in their chains. It's free will. You are in a box. All you have to do is stand up and walk away. They don't know it yet.

Psychic 1: I saw it. I went back a few years after that and she was up, out, and busy.

Psychic 3: I believe that we can create our afterlife experience just like we create our life experience, based on our beliefs and expectations.

Psychic 4: When we do past life regressions, I see what people get on the other side. It is what they expect. Some people say total darkness, other people love the sun. If you were angry in that life and didn't believe in G-d or the afterlife, it's interesting to see that you create that on the other side; what you think you are going to find. It you think there is going to be a throne and pearly gates, you just might see St. Peter walk by.

Have you had a glimpse of your afterlife?


10:33 am mst

Thursday, March 5, 2015

Along the Continuum

Along the Continuum

What if I told you that psychics can read your energy and tell you where your life is going? Would you believe me? Yes? This is a pretty easy idea for me to accept because I have experienced it.

What if I told you that many people have survived near-death experiences (NDEs)? They have felt the love on the other side. Could you accept that? This one is easy too because so many people have shared their NDE stories.

What if I told you that some psychics see and hear angels? Fairies? This concept isn't too hard for me to believe because I've talked to many people who do this work and have told me the same kinds of stories.

What if I told you some people can disappear, fade out, and appear elsewhere? They can move through different dimensions? What if I told you that a friend of a friend of friend could walk on water? These ideas are harder for me to accept because I haven't seen evidence. To me, these are theoretical.

Do we share alien DNA? Is that how humans got so smart so fast, moving past the apes in problem solving and creativity? Makes sense. Do we have proof?

We are all on a continuum of information acceptance. This year, I believe things I didn't understand last year. I know more. I have listened to people's personal stories, and I have experienced my own growth.

At Sunday's Psychic Fair, two people told me about their NDEs. They had seen the other side. A third person told me that she "sort of" had an NDE. She had woken up one night thinking she was having a heart attack. She drank water. She tried to calm down. She felt awful . . . but she didn't die. Turns out, her friend had a heart attack and died that night. What do we even call this kind of experience? A sympathetic NDE? A synchronicity? An expression of connectedness between friends?

Each year, my acceptance of this material moves farther along the continuum. I'll listen to nearly anyone's story, but I still need proof. I need confirmation. However, I see the enlarging scope of possibility, the vastness of what I don't know.

Sometimes I write about the basics of psychic ability. This material has become pretty mundane to me, but other people may think it is radical. Other times, I write about advanced principles, and I wonder if people can accept these ideas. Concepts I think are radical, may be ideas which are easily-accepted by people who have more experience than I do. We are all on a continuum of knowledge and acceptance.

I am not the person I was when I started My Psychic Search Project. At first, I asked basic questions. Now, I deal with more-sophisticated concepts.

As my understanding of psychic abilities has evolved, I have also seen how we are moving through phases of spiritualism. When it began, spiritualism was about proving that the other side existed. Physical mediumship included seances with spirits tapping on doors, table tipping, and precipitated paintings (if you want to know more, check out the September 27, 2012 and October 2, 2014 blog posts).

People were trying to prove the same things over and over. They were asking the same questions without moving on. Then, some people evolved past the need for physical evidence, the need to prove that the other side existed. Once they had accepted that the answer was "yes," they asked: Can we understand the messages clearly? Mediumship moved into personal readings, passing messages between the physical and non-physical realms.

After people accepted that clear communication with the other side was possible, spiritualism progressed beyond communicating with loved ones. Psychics learned to channel broadly-themed messages for humanity. They heard from non-human entities. They found clues to pre-history. The work moved along a continuum from "parlor tricks," to messages, to channeling. However, most people have to start at the beginning, so our need for basic information (and proof) still exists.

What will the next phase of spiritual growth be? Physical manifestation of our desires? Creating wealth? Creating peace?

I hope that the next stage will create peace, calm and respect. I believe that we are here to find peace within ourselves, so that our peace can resonate with the peace of others, and we can spread serenity throughout our communities, the world, and the universe. What do you believe?

Thank you for reading these blogs and traveling with me as we broaden our knowledge and ask grander questions.


12:55 pm mst

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